You may use anything I posted on this blog, like drawings (although I doubt you will since they are all low quality), and you may do anything to them (even make fun of them), as long as you don't take credit for the original. You don't even have to say where it came from, as long as it's clear that someone drew it/wrote it/took a picture of it, and it wasn't you.

I mean, I'd still like to know if you use something that I posted here, but you don't exactly need my permission to do it.

Okay? Okay.

Sunday, May 8, 2016

I'm Not Ready

Hello world! Happy Mother's Day!



We spent today by going to the Sacrament meeting of Elenita's family's branch (our old, old, old branch) to see her big sister talk. I think I mentioned it last week, so I won't really bother with detail.

We also ate dinner at my grandma and grandpa's house, though it was just us visiting (besides a few minutes when one aunt and my two little cousins showed up to chat a bit) rather than it being a whole family get-together. Dinner and dessert were good, and most of us got really invested into working on one of her new puzzles. We were sitting there for who knows how long and barely managed to get almost all of the edges of the 1,000 piece puzzle put together. She's got a looooot of work ahead of her...

Not much happened this week, even with school assignments. I only got, like, 3 done (besides going to Chem classes) within the entire week, one of them being the mock interview. I liked how the teacher did the interview, though; she only asked a few questions, and when you looked stuck she would help with ideas and tips on how to answer it. She said I did pretty well (I'd add a "considering" at the end of that, but whatever).

It's incredibly frustrating how long the last two assignments of Government were/are taking me. They feel so difficult... At least I managed to finish ONE of them within the week. I have tests and some other stuff I have to do this week and the next, so I am a bit concerned about if I'll manage to actually get myself to finish the last thing on time. I'd been hoping my last weeks could be stress-free and I could spend some time just reading one or two books from the English teachers' shelves... *deep sigh*

A lot's happening for other people, though, like my sister. This was her last week, and she didn't even get to be here the whole time because of pain from the recently-done wisdom teeth surgery. I've held off for long enough to say that she's spending some time in China to teach English! She's going to fill in for a lady who had to leave the program early, and thus is doing the last month and a half of the semester rather than the whole thing. She'll be there till the end of June, which is right around the time I'll end with the summer math program. Huh.

Anyway, it's gonna be weird to know she's that far away... I seriously don't have the guts to travel so far. Like, I literally doubt I have the guts for it; she has to go on 3 planes, and one of the three plane-trips lasts for hours and hours and hours... *wants to cry just thinking about it* Nonetheless, we all hope she's safe and enjoys her time there!

There's also an apartment complex that went through a fire that is very close to my house... As in, it takes just a few minutes to walk there from my complex. It was so crazy, because my sister's friend was the one taking me home, and everything was fine until we saw that my street was blocked off... And then she saw the smoke billowing up suspiciously close to where I live.

Thus, a bit of chaos ensued as we tried to figure out what was going on and how to get me home safely. At some point, she ended up having to park several blocks away and we walked the rest. We walked among the firetrucks and news stations' vans and people just sitting in front of their own complexes, watching the fire get put out. It was crazy to see the firemen actually in action. I saw at least three fire hydrants being used, and there was one fireman on a really high crane holding a hose shooting tons of water, and he was there for a long time. It was two buildings that were hit, and hit hard. We have passed by the apartments a few times since then, and the roofs have gaping holes and stuff...

One of the families in our ward lived in one of the apartments, so they currently are somewhere else. A few sisters organized sending clothes and other important things to the family so they'd have some, and my mom and I donated quite an amount from my closet and a bit from my sister's for the twin sisters in that family. I felt bad about them maybe not liking what we gave them, since a few of the shirts weren't very nice, but my mom said they'd be grateful for anything. At least I know that some of the clothes fit, since one of the girls went to church today wearing my old dress and shoes.

As far as I know, no one knows how the fire was caused... At least no one was hurt, and hopefully everyone will recover okay from the loss.

I realized I hadn't listened to "The Weight of Us" by Sanders Bohlke in a long time, and I used to listen to that song a ton last school year. I did so yesterday, and I'm so glad I did. It's an awesome song, and Carter actually agreed. (Of course he did; he likes orchestra.) The title of this post is because of the song... and seemed appropriate since I've been thinking a lot about the possible trip to Mexico. I kept almost tearing up during Sacrament because the very thought is terrifying me...

And I seriously need to text Sami because I've put it off for too long. It just feels so weird to say anything to a friend I haven't talked to in a long time... I'm too used to just leaving old friends behind completely. There are a few exceptions, but I hadn't thought Sami to be one of them. I know I should talk with her, but I just feel so bad and I don't know what it'd be like to hang out with her now. Gah!

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