You may use anything I posted on this blog, like drawings (although I doubt you will since they are all low quality), and you may do anything to them (even make fun of them), as long as you don't take credit for the original. You don't even have to say where it came from, as long as it's clear that someone drew it/wrote it/took a picture of it, and it wasn't you.

I mean, I'd still like to know if you use something that I posted here, but you don't exactly need my permission to do it.

Okay? Okay.

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Father-Daughter Bonding Time? And the Move Continues!

Hello world~

So, I missed out last week, and almost didn't post this week, either. 'Tis because we've been doing moving stuff, including on Sundays. (We haven't been going to all three hours of church in order to get more done at the house, which makes me feel kinda bad.) My mom said that I did enough exercise for a month these past few days, and I agree.

Well, I'm gonna try to stick to chronological order, but we all know that doesn't always happen. *"Whatcha gonna do?" shrug*

First of all: I mentioned being sick in the last post? The worst days were Sunday and Monday (bad enough that I basically skipped out on school except for my Chemistry test, but I was a mess during that whole thing), but it was still clinging on for Tuesday, and I pretty much felt okay on Wednesday. Jeez, I'm so glad I don't get sick often nowadays.

Even though I was feeling pretty sucky, though, and I knew we didn't exactly have much time for random un-useful stuff, I really, really wanted to go watch The Lego Batman Movie. Not just that, but I really wanted to watch it with my dad. So, on Monday evening, I determinedly stuffed my pockets with tissues and cough drops and we went to watch it. My dad wielded the free IMAX tickets he had been given at work for Christmas, so we got fancier seats than usual.

Spoiler alert: it was absolutely amazing and hilarious and so worth it. (And I ended up barely touching my weaponry, so that was a relief.)

Valentine's Day was pretty fun. And by that, I mean we got a lot of good food that day. My parents picked me up from school, and we went to get some pho and sushi for everyone (including Captain). Then, for dessert, we had some of my mom's limey cheesecake pie thing. (Delicious, of course.) We were kinda spoiled that day.

(Okay, this is technically Friday, but it feels more appropriate to put it here. The school Valentine's activity was on Friday, and my teacher- exactly like last year- made me go at some point, when I was pretty dang determined to do schoolwork. Some things don't change. My dad was gonna pick me up after school, so I made him a little origami flower thing and saved him a mini cupcake from the party. Yes, I'm adorable.)

(Friday was also the day that we found out that they put down Gatuna, my abuelita's cat. Turned out she wasn't getting better after all. My mom, sis, and I are sad about it, but I think we're all even more sad about how much Abuelita and her dogs must be grieving.)

I was originally supposed to test for my brown belt the week before, but I was seriously feeling under-prepared. So, I did some more practicing on Tuesday and Wednesday (but not much drilling on the second), and by then the teacher was like "Bro. Do the test already." I still felt unprepared, since it's quite a bit of material, and I knew I had a rather slippery grasp on the older stuff, but I felt rather pressured into it. Plus, I knew that- with the moving and school stuff and everything- I was probably not gonna come often, if at all, from that point on, so it wasn't like I was ever going to get any better with the material.

I knew it was silly to be so upset while taking the test (barely-keeping-in-the-tears upset), but I couldn't help it. How the heck could I feel confident when I felt like an absolute idiot out there? I didn't remember everything quite right, and I ended up taking a lot of really embarrassing pauses, desperately trying to recall what the heck I was supposed to do next, and sometimes I just didn't even catch it on my own eventually. They had to go hinting and prompting me when I knew that's absolutely not what they should have to be doing if I'm trying to freaking be a higher belt! All throughout, I kept mentally screaming at the master, "See? See?! I told you I wasn't ready for this yet! And now I have to go looking like an imbecile in front of you when I know I'm not!"

I somehow passed... barely... and I had to accept my score because, as much as I hated the thought, I knew I wasn't going to do better than that.

I basically burst into tears the moment my dad and I exited the building (I really wasn't sure how I felt about my dad being there to watch me fumble and fail the whole way through). I'll have to give my dad credit for having a lot more tact than usual at that moment as he tried to cheer me up. He assured me that, hey, that was a lot of forms, and you made it through all of them, and you passed, and you'll work on the forms more as you help out in lower belt! I was really not in the mood, but... yeah, a part of me still appreciated the effort.

(I also ended up having a rather intense bruise on my arm from the sparring on Saturday. It felt a bit like a trophy and a reminder of my idiocy at the same time.)

So, somehow, I ended up having both a ton of fun with my dad and a really bittersweet moment with my dad in the same week, just a few days before he left. But I'm getting a bit ahead of myself, considering I said I was gonna be going chronological (but then again, I admitted it wouldn't completely work out).

On Saturday, we all went out for dinner at the dim sum place one last time as a family. (My dad originally wanted to do the Korean place, but it wasn't open to customers at the time we went over there. I'm personally kinda relieved, since I find it harder to enjoy food when almost all of it is spicy. I admitted so to my mom, but I wish she hadn't then told my dad, too.)

I'm all sads and frustrateds, now, because I just realized that the fortune I'd saved from the fortune cookie at the end of the meal is now lost, after everything started getting moved around and out of my house. I believe it said something like this, though:

"Eat your vegetable and you'll grow up to be big and strong like Popeye."

Yes, a real fortune cookie said that. Yes, it said a single vegetable. Yes, it referenced Popeye.

I certainly have a right to be sads and frustrateds that this goldmine is lost in the depths of my old abode's carpet or the trash.

We had already started doing some packing, but- as mentioned before- we started getting a little more serious starting last Sunday. Not even going to KF or Young Women's. It got more complicated, though, because we packed things based on if we wanted to have them with us as we moved into our friends' place or in the new storage unit my parents rented out nearby (or, in my case, things I wanted to save for my college dorm in the very near future; those things are also gonna be in storage, but we'll hopefully not be super rushed during my transition, as some of the packing will have been done already). We did even more packing throughout the week (besides Wednesday, which I had dedicated to research for my new English essay), so there's not really much to talk about for most of this past week.

On Sunday, we also ended up being invited over for dinner at Captain's house. His parents wanted to meet my dad before he left, understandably. The dinner was quite good, and it looked like people were overall enjoying the time chatting and getting to know each other. (Having dinner with people- moreso with non-Hispanics than Hispanics, in my personal experience- always has an awkward taste in the air, to me.)

And, on Monday, my dad left to begin his trip to yet another new job. We know we'll see him at my sister's wedding, so that was a small comfort, but it still hurt to watch him leave.

I finally turned in my science scholarship applications later that same day, with completed essays and everything! (I ended up asking the high school chem teacher if he would be my second recommendation, after me and Isaiah went on a whole search for my old physics professor. A few days later... my old prof finally answered the email. *deep sigh* I sure hope the chemistry teacher will give a convincing recommendation!

On Friday, I actually skipped school (uuugh, and I really wanted to go to seminary!), as we were beginning some of the official moving that day. This couple from the ward we had been at was nice enough to help us get a bunch of stuff moved to the storage unit and to the new place with their giant truck. Captain also helped a bit later that day with dissembling then reassembling my sister's bed-frame to get it from House 1 to House 2. (Oh, he and his dad had also stuffed my dad's mattress into the remaining space of a moving cube on Wednesday, which took a lot more time and effort than originally anticipated. The poor things! Also, one of the teachers at my school was the one to take my own bed. I hope that bed works out for his family.)

Okay, it's pretty late, and my mom's warning me to start getting ready for bed already. I'll just say quick that my mom and I went to our old ward for Sacrament meeting today, since our friends are in that ward. By old ward, I mean the one I was in up until we moved to Alabama. It was kinda weird. I ended up chatting quite a bit with the girls I knew there, though, so that's a good sign. If they still talk to me next Sunday, too, I'll be a little more confident about coming back.

My mom and I made little pizzas with some of the remaining ingredients at our old house, and they were delicious. We also plan to use some of that remaining buñuelo sugar stuff from Christmas on a leftover scone tomorrow. Be jealous.

Sunday, February 12, 2017

Life is Complicated (+ My Cousins like Ninjago and Memes)

Hello world. *sniffle*

I'm kinda sick today; didn't even make it through all of church. My dad and I ended up leaving early to get some sick supplies, mostly for my sister. It looks like she might have the flu all over again...

On the bright side, I sound like a dude. And, according to my dad, I also sound a little drunk. That means, when I haven't been feeling super tired and gross, I've been laughing at my own voice.

Okay, there are a few things that I desperately wanna share! That's for a little later, though, since I'm gonna try to go in chronological order.

Two weeks ago, I mentioned a leather bracelet, but kept forgetting to take a picture of it! I'm finally gonna get myself to do that now:



Look at that majestic beauty.



I can thank something that happened last summer, actually, for managing to do pretty dang decent with this. I think I mentioned that they were doing little fairs every weekend in my city? In the first one we went to, there was a stand where you could try out stamping leather. I believe I'd kept a scrap from there, but found it very difficult to make anything out of it. Now, though, it's already in form. Considering it's close to my normal skin color, I don't think I'm going to wear it much, but I'm still proud of my work.

(In case you can't really see what it has, it's butterflies, "Lily", and a cat with flowers. That's... pretty much it.)

As expected, my English essay's now 7 full pages. I still have some work to do on it, but I think it looks better now. In other news, the essay for the scholarship feels like it might be too short, but I'm really unsure what to do to make it better. Grr.

My dad got a job offer this week, but- surprise- it's in Texas. The thing, though, is that this isn't like all the other times he got another job, where we would all just go with him, because next year is going to be college, not K-12. I know I'd been considering colleges in other states earlier, but... I think I'd feel better staying at the U, anyways, even if my family's not going to be there with me. My parents said I could go with them and attend the University of Texas, but that feels a little weirder to me. That also means, though, that I have to stay at a dorm if I stay here, which, admittedly, might cost more than if I go stay with them. Maybe. I'm not sure how I feel about all of this.

So yeah. My dad's gonna go to Texas next week, the rest of us are staying at the mom-and-daughter family friends until I finish school and my sis moves into Captain's parents' guesthouse. I guess when my mom will go depends on whether I get the scholarship or not, since the scholarship would mean that I start at the U in the summer, not the fall. I don't think she plans on staying for the whole first semester anymore, but just until I'm settled into my dorm.

I realized pretty fast that all this insanity was gonna affect a friend- namely, Carter. Are the prom plans going to be more complicated now that we won't even be living independently? And living further from the school and downtown? Due to thinking about this, I gave Carter the rundown on the situation a few days ago. He said that he was still willing to come, thank goodness. I'm hoping we can do some real planning for prom once we move out of here and move in with the friends.

Before I told him this stuff, though, he'd sent me the final episode of the current RWBY season. DUDE. (I always had a feeling Ren's backstory, once they finally showed it, might make me cry. Confirmed.)

Remember how I mentioned something big was going to happen this week in the last post? Weeeeell~ it happened! 20 kids at my school were honored for finishing their high school credits early, and had a whole graduation ceremony during a school assembly. And guess what? I was one of them!

It was... weird. So weird. It's not every day you graduate, even if it isn't really your real graduation. (All of us are still around doing concurrent classes till the end of the year, so we're going to be in the normal graduation ceremony, too.) It was still neat, though, to see some of the people I'd be standing with for real graduation, and see all of us in the caps (but not the gowns), and see my mom, dad, and sister there in the front row. I feel like I grew a little closer with the fellow juniors and seniors, too, experiencing this with them. (Yes, there really were juniors up there, too! I'm friends with one of them.) So... I'd say this might actually make the real graduation more meaningful, even if it's basically doing what we just did a second time through with a lot more people.

As I mentioned a long time ago, my sister probably wouldn't be able to be there for my graduation in June. And now we know my dad probably won't, either. I'm very relieved that I could be in the early graduation ceremony, and they could be here for it, due to those facts.

After we were awarded our blank diplomas (because this wasn't our real graduation), some kids in the school's Senate gave us little baskets with some school supplies (and a packet of ramen), along with long candy necklaces (made of cellophane wrap, stuffed with random fun-sized candies like Twix and Twizzlers). They'd also asked us for favorite quotes and pictures of ourselves so they could make posters. (I'd thought that they might let other people see the posters before giving them to us, but that didn't really happen? I was curious about what everyone else had on theirs...) One of my teachers had written something really sweet on my poster, so I'm hoping to transcribe it into the next post (and maybe also put in a picture of the cap?).

Oh, and after the assembly, there was a lunch set up for us early grads, our families, and the teachers. It reminded me of Thanksgiving.

After that momentous day ended, I began the themed outfits for Valentine's Day, because that's what I do on holidays. While thinking about all the stuff I could wear, I realized I still have a lot of pink clothes. And more red clothes than I used to own. I have materials for two weeks straight, easily, but I'm going to try to limit it to just Thursday to Wednesday. (Valentine's is on Tuesday, so that seemed like a more appropriate time-frame.)

Pretty sure only my mom knows why I wore my Blossom dress yesterday, and a bright red dress today. There are no coincidences with me around!

I'm most excited for Valentine's Day itself, since I plan to wear my Mexican red dress (the one I've been wearing on my birthday the past few years) with the Louise hat. Yep, the light pink bunny-eared hat from Bob's Burgers my dad gave me for Christmas. I've only worn it around the house a few times, so this seemed like the perfect opportunity to bring it to school!

Speaking of clothes, my mom and I actually used Thursday to slim down the size of my collection. I managed to finally let go of some stuff I'd had in there for way too long. Some of that stuff I had around as long as some of my stuffed animals, and we all know how hard it was for me to give away some of them. (I still miss them, sometimes!) It seriously had to be done, though.

By the end, we stood back and realized that we took out much more than expected. My mom estimates that we got rid of about a third of my closet, which is a rather impressive number. We still have other drawers and suitcases and stuff to take care of, but we're certainly doing a lot better on the New Year's Resolution to minimize the amount of clothes I own.

(Meanwhile, there's a few dresses I found on Hot Topic's website that I'm so tempted to ask for...)

I spent my Friday afternoon with just reading a ton of fics and stuff, so I'll skip to Saturday. We went to my grandma and grandpa's house for lunch, with Captain in tow. (It looked like my grandparents and aunts and uncles like him, once they got over how soon the marriage will be.)

Cam and Ash (and their parents) were there, as usual, but I'd forgotten that some of my cousins from Nevada were staying there, as well. They were the ones that I re-met at the Fourth of July family reunion last year. They certainly remembered me this time around, so that was fun. Just like last time, they were way into Youtube, but it looked like they were more focused on stupid memes than Youtube gamers. Since they actually had access to computers and tablets, they were showing me and each other the actual videos. The biggest joke that day that we had was randomly saying "Shine-YEE", or adding "YEE" to other words. (Clearly, my little cousins have very mature, thought-provoking things to say.)

Oh! A few days ago, I'd accidentally discovered that there is going to be a Lego Ninjago movie coming out in September, and it turns out my cousins had seen the news, too. I mean, I was already psyched about seeing The Lego Batman Movie with my dad (which we haven't done yet, but I really hope we can before he goes!), despite not seeing the trailer for it or anything, but I'm even more psyched about Ninjago! Some of my little cousins like that show, as well, and even Cam (who proclaimed to not be much into the show) was very excited about it. We all fangirled a bit together. It is a great day when you manage to fangirl a bit with your little cousins.

I was going to later say to my sis, "See? The stuff that I like isn't all that weird! Our cousins like it too!" but then I remembered... She probably wouldn't be very convinced by knowing that I like some of the same things as 7- to 12-year-old boys.

Other discoveries during our time at Grandma and Grandpa's yesterday include:
- I am the only cousin without a middle name
- Cam shares a middle name with one of our baby cousins in another state (Oops!)
- There's now a Sphinx cat in the house; she's named Chicken Kitty (since they had all apparently decided that her face looks like that of a plucked chicken's)
- Chicken Kitty likes me
- Tay Zonday is a very smiley man
- Some of my cousins are terrible at not spoiling Ninjago episodes I haven't seen yet
- Memes I didn't know existed until now

The mom-and-daughter family friends, plus two others, came for dinner last night. At that point, though, I was feeling kinda pooped out, so I hardly talked to them. The food was quite good, though! (According to Sis, Captain ate three tamales.)

Alrighty-o, I think that's everything. I hope I can finish everything on time, and study a bit more for my first chemistry test tomorrow (Ah!), and get to see The Lego Batman Movie, and do some more writing, and not feel super, duper sucky like I am today! Bye!

Sunday, February 5, 2017

Memorizing P-Tables and Writing Everything

Hello world!

Sis and Captain made the engagement official yesterday! According to them, he took her to a park and into a gazebo. His sister was there to snap the photos when he made the proposal. Her ring is very pretty (yet adorable, since her ring size is really tiny). He actually came to church with us, today!

Captain was doing really well in my mom's dance classes, actually. These past couple of weeks, she'd been teaching "La botella" (man, doesn't that dance just make you regret everything?), and he was one of the people to get the hang of it the fastest. My mom started teasing the other guys, saying "Dude, even el gringo beat you!" ...Well, that's kinda a paraphrase, since my mom doesn't talk like that, but you get the gist.

My mom informed everyone, though, that she was gonna stop classes until we know what the heck's up with our living situation. I can't remember if I mentioned that my dad's been job-hunting and doing tons of interviews and stuff? I probably did. Anywho, that's still going on. There's... a lot of possibilities for where we'll end up going. Well, him and my mom, at least. Regardless of where his job is, I'll be at the U in the fall (and maybe summer), and my sis will soon be moving away with her fiance after they're married. My mom just wants to at least live close-by for the first semester that I'm in college, so I don't feel all alone, then she'll go move to wherever my dad ended up. We're all hoping he'll at least be in-state, but the likelihood's dropping.

I guess it's a little scary, how- much like all the other times in my life- we just have no idea what's gonna happen. My parents are a little more at-ease, at least, that I don't technically have to come along with them, at this point, but it also means we're all gonna be separate from each other.

I hope we'll all end up being happy with the situation, once things are worked out, and it doesn't get too... convoluted.

Well, let's start at the beginning of the week now, I guess.

...

Uh... what'd I do at the beginning of the week?

Well, I just asked my mom, and all she could come up with was going to KF class on Tuesday (and we also went on Saturday). I guess I just did homework and fic-reading otherwise?

On Thursday, I had my first math test for the semester... Literally the only math tests I've done since last school year were the ones for Math Club. I missed having a proper math class.

Considering I've mostly done special math-y stuff, not science-y stuff, my dad's been pointing out that I could major in math. I kept being like "No, I don't wanna!", but now... I'm actually kinda thinking about it. Dang it, I'd already been like "But what if Chemistry?" or "But what if Medical Lab Technician?" (this one's a little less likely, but my dad figured there could still be some interesting stuff here), and now I also have "But what if Mathematics?" in my brain, too. I'm still put as a Biology major, but I'm less sure I'll still be that by the time I graduate...

Regardless of whatever I choose, I wanna make sure that what I study in my current Chem class will stick, cuz I'm definitely gonna need it. Unlike previous years, I'm really dedicating myself to memorizing the Periodic Table and stuff like that. (I want to reach the point where I can just rattle this stuff off like Edward Elric can. I can't find a gif of when he does that, but I know he does.) So far, I'm working on the elements in order (the first 23, so far), and common ions, and some of the key groups... Oh, and the diatomic elements. (He gave us a mnemonic, but I've just been going with "H-NOF, Br-ClI", pronounced kinda like "Enough, Br-Clyde!" I'd tried some other combos, but that's the shortest.) So... yeah. A lot of memorization now, so I can hopefully suffer a little less later.

As for my English class, my essay's refused to be short enough for the assignment given. That's right, short enough. The first draft that I printed out came out as 6 whole pages, when the max was supposedly 5. I asked my teacher to look through, and she said it was okay, since everything there was relevant and necessary and such, so at least I'm not still stressing over that. (I enlisted the help of two friends- the one with the fancy calculator from a month ago, and Carter- to get it shorter. There was a lot of hours of work put in, and it still ended up 6 full pages. Dude.) Ironically, she said I needed to add some more as to my own personal feelings and motivations and stuff, so... it's gonna be 7, in the end. Oops.

That's not the only essay I'm working on, though. I want to get the one for the scholarship at the U I wanna apply for done before the housing app opens, which is... this Friday, I think. I still have a lotta work to do, in that case. And I haven't even asked for my recommendations yet! *facepalm over and over*

Anyway, the essay's supposed to be about expressing my interest for math/science and my career goals. I have an idea for how I'll go about this, but I'm worried that it might just not be very impressive compared to some of the other girls that are applying. I mean, there's a lot of girls going into science now, and some of them have probably done really impressive stuff already. I feel pretty confident in admitting that I'm probably not as impressive. I really want this, though. It's not just money, but a guarantee that I'll get to do undergrad research. It's a little scary that I'd have to present what I do, but I'd have to do that if I sought out my own research opportunity later anyways.

Pretty much the only event left to speak of is a family friend, Pope (you pronounce the "e"), coming with her boyfriend and daughter for some tacos al pastor. I searched for a mention of her and/or her daughter in this blog, but I haven't found it! I thought I had during Winter Break 2014-15, at least... Nevertheless, her daughter's 7, now, and much like how she was when I played with her during that time mentioned. She definitely talks more now, though. Unlike that other time, where both of us went back and forth with the pencil, we kinda collaborated in a different way. This is what we ended up with, on my paper:


The face is a little disproportionate, but it's pretty decent otherwise. (I think the colors that she picked look pretty dang good, too.) Fun fact: it's probably not particularly noticeable, aside from the neck, but I'd put a bit of gray for shading in some parts. I'm pretty sure she had no idea what I was trying to do.

I also watched Alice Through the Looking Glass with her, which had some cool stuff, but... It kinda seemed like too much of a stretch from what I would call canon. I liked the interpretations of what the backstories could be, at least. And I approve the career they gave adult Alice!

Once they had all gone, I worked on QQ with Liz.

Oh, I'd forgotten to mention that, on Thursday and Saturday, I'd spent quite a bit of the evening working with Carter on his writing. He already had some random scenes written for his story (as far as I understand), but wanted me to give my two cents for the first chapter. (He actually recently added a character into the story who is introduced in this very chapter and has the same name as me, besides a very small change in spelling! Her appearance and personality and everything is very different, though; we basically just share name, gender, and wearing a pair of glasses.) I... usually can't provide very good advice for this sort of thing, so I dunno why Carter keeps asking me for it, honestly. I got to proofread, though, and it was fun reading the chapter.

As for my own work, WFAM... I haven't really done much actual writing for it, but... for whatever reason, I decided to write out a short script. I mean, I've kinda done two or three of those for school assignments, but I never did that on my own time. ...Though, now that I think of it, the RP-ish stuff I do with some friends is more script than prose... Whatever! The point is, it was a weird urge.

I guess I do kinda know the reason for how this happened, actually. It was pretty early in my WFAM notes, when I'd been thinking about "What if this was a movie?" since that would entail a different approach to the beginning of the story, as well as have music. I'd thought that, maybe, it could be shuffling through Cami's baby pictures, where it shows her normal, yet also contains pictures of her when she'd suddenly shifted into a random animal. Cami would say something about how weird it still is to know that that was her in all of those photos. For music, I'd thought something like Green Day or Paramore would be cool. A few days ago, though, I'd been looping through my Totem City CD, and thought "Hey, this music would work, too! This song could be for the final fight, or something else equally intense, and 'Prequel' could be in the opening!" Besides the fact that I love those songs, I figured it could also be a way to help the guy out to become better-known in the world, since he certainly deserves it. You know, if he wouldn't mind being known through a movie about shapeshifters.

I think it's from thinking about how "Prequel" could be used in the imaginary movie's opening scene that I ended up being like "I gotta write this down". And, since describing what's happening on a screen isn't the same as writing a novel, I wrote it like a play.

I don't know if this could really count as writing for the novel, since it's not in the style/format that I want the novel to be written in, but I don't think it's exactly bad that I'm trying this out.

Something different's gonna happen this week, so tune in next Sunday to find out what! Bye!