Poetry

Hello world!

My Winter Break has finally begun! WOO-HOO! *partay*

I guess the biggest thing this week (besides being the last week of school in 2013!!!!!!!) is that I have written some stuff, both for school and on my own time.

I don't remember if I've said so, but poetry isn't really my thing. They make you write poems at least once in a while for Language Arts, but it was usually necessary to rhyme in earlier years. I guess I had fun writing it, but I just didn't really feel like I put heart into it. (I do when I write in here and in my stories.) But this year they didn't focus as much into the rhyme, and more into the other aspects of poetry, and I had to write 2-3 poems.

The first one, he had us do for homework right after showing us a TED Talk about a lady who has been going around speaking at high schools and stuff to inspire people to write poetry. One of the tricks she used was that everyone had to write the first few things that they knew to be true that popped into their heads, no matter how trivial, and just used one of those things to write a poem. He had us do that too. The truth I decided to use was that I wanted to be a an elementary teacher when I grew up. (Have I talked about this either?) That lady at the end performed one of her poems, and I personally liked it a lot, and my own was inspired by it. I liked writing it a lot more, and I put in more thought and feeling into it. It rhymed, I think, but it wasn't in a stiff format. A couple of days later, my teacher said he liked it so much he made copies of it and was going to use it as an example for future students! Imagine my surprise, and how impressed the people nearby were. *Imagining that awesome moment...* Yup. It was great. I just want to get the original copy back but he still hasn't...

And last week (as in the week I was talking about in the last post) we had to work on a rough draft for a new poem, which when I heard about the assignment, could barely wait to start writing! It was that we were supposed to compare our minds to something, and keep that symbolism going throughout the entire poem. The only idea in my head was to make my mind a library, and after the teacher showed some obvious things I could correct to make the poem better (it was things I was doubting already, so I changed it gladly), I became extremely happy with my masterpiece. Few people have read/heard it so far, and they said it was quite good. I hope anyone reading this likes it too.

Would You Like to Read a Book From My Mind?

My mind is like a library.

Some sections have such few books it's like that genre barely exists.

Some sections are so overpopulated the poor shelves groan from the weight.

Some sections are clean, tidy, organized,

Some sections you can barely see the floor, depending on who last handled it

although sometimes that person is me.

There are fiction books,

dreams, fake scenes- from Percy Jackson saving Annabeth,

to Kira writing the next name to face his wrath- that play over and over in your head

so often it's like you live in this fantasy world orchestrated by the author

and you actually wish with all your heart it was real

to escape reality forever

but you know it's just a story.

There are nonfiction books,

memories, things of the past once experienced and learned

that are described in a way that you imagine being there, whether you want to or not

and these history books can span from the beginning of time itself to you right now.

There are the informational books,

that have been updated with vocab and how-tos since I was born,

because, after all, you learn something new every day.

There are my autobiographies,

records, diaries kept locked in the back of my library, in which only I have the key

that log not only my everyday events and emotions

but my entire way of being.

And those that are privileged to read any amount of these accounts

(or sneak a peek without my knowledge)

may have critiqued the writer badly too many times

simply because they didn't understand fully

the reasoning, the mindset, the way this very library was built-

and they never would in a million years.

Most reviews are silent, but they are knives that can cut deep.

This library is new, naive, and probably not filled with as much knowledge as it should have at this point,

and the deeper you go it gets curiouser and curiouser,

(and every once in a while you might find a cat softly purring in its sleep,)

but it's mine.

Do you like it?! If you do, please say something! *tear* Hearing more spoken poetry really made me appreciate it more, and I hope it would do the same for you.

 Now, the other work of art I have written! On Thursday I wrote my first fanfic, and I posted it yesterday! *freaking out internally* I had been seriously thinking about writing something, but couldn't find an idea in my noggin that I was happy with and knew I could write. Then suddenly, the night before, it smacked me in the face, and I rubbed the pain away with a smile, thinking about how it would go. I worked on it in the morning during school, during all the little breaks I could get (AKA a moment where I had finished my work already and didn't have to listen to the teacher.) I wrote the last few paragraphs when I got home from school, and I reviewed it a few times before sending it to my new bud, I Am Darkrai. (I have also become friends with Tterit.) I decided I needed at least one person to read it before posting, cuz I personally thought it was kinda boring, but he loved it. (Also, my idea was inspired by some one-shots he's posted, and wanted to make sure he didn't think I was copying him.) For anyone who wants to read my first story on the internet, and maybe for Future Me, here's the link. https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9944405/1/Al-Meets-a-Star

This was kinda a big step in my writing career, because it's my first story using a character that already exists. (Luckily, I hadn't decided to write his thoughts or anything too deep, cuz then I would've gotten too worried about whether that even sounded correct or not...) It was also big because it's the first story I've ever written that was in 3rd person (except for a Cinderella story I never finished in 2nd grade), as far as I remember. I have always just written in 1st person, where you talk with "I" instead of "he/she," or pretty much how I write in this blog, except for the times when I talk directly to the readers in the form of "you," or 2nd person. Writing in 3rd person had made me even more nervous because of how I was referring to the characters. The perspective was leaning more towards the cat, and I have no idea if cats can tell the difference between boy/girl humans, plus I figured Al wouldn't find it necessary to check the gender of the cat. Everyone is referred to as and "it," therefore. I tried my best to use it in a sense that wouldn't confuse people, but I may have... If you read it please tell me if it's confusing! (P.S.- It's a two-shot, so in a few days the second half will be up, and after that who knows what stories I'll write and when.)

Wow, the paragraphs in this post are huge!!! O.O

I'll probably be posting on Christmas or right after or something, cuz it's break and I won't have much to do, but just in case, Happy Holidays! *confetti and sparkles and tinsel* Muah! Bai!

♪Don't You Wish You Had a (Missionary) Like Mine?♫

Hello world!

I suppose a lot of you have at least seen from a distance the Mormon missionaries. They walk, bike, or drive around a lot of neighborhoods, and they always wear suits, have name tags, and carry a Book of Mormon wherever they go. I highly suggest you go talk to one. They will definitely help you.

Anyways, last week two missionaries came over for dinner. When they were coming in, I was in the middle of reading Bloody Monday on the couch. "You like manga?" One of them asked. I said "Yeah..." awkwardly cuz I was not expecting this out of a missionary. (Are they even allowed to talk about stuff like that?) Then he went on to tell me that he loves manga and anime, and especially drawing it. I showed him a few of my drawings, which he said were good. *blush* We went on to talk a little bit about drawing until my mom called us all to the kitchen.

Then he started drawing in my notebook and what a surprise! He is actually really good at drawing! Without references! And in pen! And then he told me that these were just quickies and some of the pooish ones he's ever done!!! WAT

So we all talked a while, him mainly saying how he used to draw a lot in high school and would even use his friends' stories to make comics. He also told that what he likes about Japanese animation is that they put more detail, like folds in clothing, compared to American. He's right, but I personally don't have the patience to learn all of that...

So, for my drawing of the week, I decided to imitate him a little. I only made half of it like his so it still felt more like I'M the one who drew this, but I look up to him now. He might teach me something.

Something about the way he draws is that it is more realistic. He told me he doesn't like drawing ginormous eyes and prefers to make them more like real eyes. Also, he draws hair this way than in large strands, which I guess is okay since he's not animating. (If he animated hair like this, it would probably become a big mess, in my opinion.) Of course, he made the head, eyelashes (for some reason I wanted to change the eyelashes so they were like that), and mouth more like a professional, and he actually drew an ear. But I just skipped that stuff since I have a thing about drawing like a normal person...

Also, I have made an online friend! *sparkle* He is on FanFiction, and his name is "I Am Darkrai." It started by me being a fan of one of his stories. We just started talking and he eventually decided it was a good idea to tell me his name and a few things like the color of his hair. I was a bit more vague with my reply back, but I think I didn't tell him enough to be able to stalk me... He could have been lying, don'cha know. 

So yeah. We're budz. I hope we get to have some very entertaining convos and some serious convos and be able to stay like that without him pushing me to meet him, because I think at that point I would stay away more. Please be cool Darkrai! I have heard a lot of stories about pervs online, and I wish with all my heart you aren't one of them...

One more thing! I am actually getting a lot of inspiration from fanfics, and with time I think an original idea for a story may brew up in my head! I can't wait for the day!!!

Make-a-Wish and an Angel Gets Baptized

Hello world!

This week was kind of awesome. 

MONDAY: a new Adventure Time comes out. On Facebook there is a post that says that a kid (who is 14, making this even awesomer for me) in Make-a-Wish wanted to do a voiceover for his fave show, and it was on this new episode! I watched the episode a second time and found him and I got all happies inside! (He deserved more lines, but it's still awesome that he got his wish.)

I really liked hearing about his wish because I actually started thinking about this a few months ago. I can't remember what got me on the topic, but for maybe a week I just thought about what I would do if I knew I would die in a certain amount of days or something. One of the things I was thinking about doing was going straight to Cartoon Network Studios and telling my situation and convincing them to let me do a voiceover for an episode of Adventure Time. So when I found out about this kid, it kinda shocked me and made me so happy. A guy exactly my age had the exact wish I did, and got to do it just months before I thought of it! (Episodes take a while to animate, you know.) I was even a little jealous that he beat me to it, but mainly happy that someone's mind works like mine. I kinda wanna meet him now. 

TUESDAY: we have an assembly at school about our fundraisers for the winter, and the main one was to grant a wish for a girl for Make-a-Wish! (I found it quite ironic.) I have already donated a few dollars and plan to ask for some more from my mom cuz I never have money cuz I don't have a job and so I'm broke. I really want to work, but I'm too lazy to look for it...

Also, I got to watch Tangled!

THURSDAY: 2 weeks ago a new girl and her brother came to my church branch. Her name is Angel (technically, that's her nickname so it's fine for me to use it here) and we all got to talk with her easily, and she seems to like all of the girls. For some reason, she is the closest to me. I mean, it's awesome, but also kinda confusing to me. Whatever. 

Anyways, so on Thursday was her birthday! And also her and her brother's baptism into the church! (I don't think I've really mentioned it, but I'm in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, although we are usually just called Mormons) I tried to keep most of my excitement inside, but a lot still shined through as she got in the water. It means so much more when you really know the person getting baptized. 

After, they held the refreshments and we talked some more. She mentioned that she likes anime, and when I said I do too, we both started to squeal and jump around and shout for joy (or in other words fangirl all over the place). As far as I know, we both have a mutual luv for Black Butler, and maybe we'll find some other ones. It saddened me, though, that she really doesn't like Fullmetal Alchemist, cuz it's perhaps my favorite anime, at least so far. 

Also, she can't really take a hint. My sister, when she said stuff before, would say stuff like "me and lilaclily00 (well, I'm substituting my real name) were at a family dinner at my grandma's house for Thanksgiving..." as part of her stories but Angel didn't even realize me and my sister might be related, so she freaked when I said she's my older sister. "What?! You guys are related?! I thought you were just friends!" She also didn't realize who my dad is and got surprised when she realized that my mom and dad are married... Later, to mess with her, I told her that a certain guy was my brother (have I said anything about my brotha from anotha motha?) and then it took a while for me and my sister to explain the real relationship.

FRIDAY: I watched Up and read a lot on fanfiction.net, pretty much until I went to sleep past midnight. One was just so messed up it made me feel feels I haven't felt with my feelers for a while. (Ahahahaha) [Edited 10/14/2017: removed some things I wish I hadn't said from this point on in the paragraph.] I don't even know what the weird feeling was, but it was like what happened when I read other fanfics a while ago that have to do with sadness and stuff that makes me really uncomfortable. What is this strange experience of experiences I am experiencing? (What is up with this paragraph?) [10/14/2017: That's what I'd like to know, Past Me, if this post had bothered me enough over the years that I literally edited some of it out. I know it's a diary, but it could still be read by other people, you butt.]

These past few weeks this blog has become a lot more like an actual diary. Is that a good or bad thing? I almost wish next week will be boring so that I will have to talk about different stuff. 

...K bai

Lily Says No Bewbs

Hello world!

And Happy Thanksgiving and Black Friday and 1st of December!!! (Well, the first two are late.)
I had planned to write on Friday, but my mom and sister were watching a movie in the living room and I accidentally got myself stuck watching it. Then yesterday we went on a little trip downtown for a few hours. We weren't gone long, but if my mom let me stay home by myself, I could've gotten it done. (My sister needed it for the rest of the day for homework and then for a freaking movie!!! RAGE)

ANYWAYS on Tuesday I did one of the greatest things ever to make a friend happy!

In seminary they do a thing, which I guess is done every year, where you give a few people a turkey-gram, or pretty much a little thank-you note, like a candy-gram but for Thanksgiving. I wanted to give one to Grell (who I mentioned before) because she suggested Fairy Tail to me, and I couldn't get enough of  it since I started watching. She also explained some stuff to me. But with something that could probably just seem so trivial to some people, I wanted to prove that I was grateful, not just by a note.

So, late Monday night, I cut out a piece of fabric and hand-sewed it so it was a reasonable length and width and practiced what I would do with it. Then in the morning I also downloaded a picture of the guild tattoo (it's a tattoo, right?) onto my phone for reference. Just minutes before the turkey-grams would be passed out in class, I worked quickly and quietly and got it done!

I dressed myself (right) up sorta so I looked like Lucy (left) from Fairy Tail! I drew her hand tattoo with a pink highlighter onto my hand (note: I drew it with my freaking left hand which make it much harder but all for the sake of authenticity) and tied up a side half ponytail with the fabric, which is her signature look, although she does change hairstyle a few times in the series. I also wore a shirt, with a pattern too hard to draw, that seemed like the most likely she would wear if she wore something with long sleeves from my closet. (DANG IT I just realized I forgot to draw the cuffs!) Of course, she'd wear it without the black tank top underneath from the impression I get from how she dresses... When I showed Grell who I dressed up as after she read my turkey-gram, I am pretty sure she got even happier inside.

I am quite pleased with the picture of Lucy, since it was my first, and I used a ton of reference photos on Google since she never used a pose like that. I guess the biggest flaw for the whole thing is that she doesn't have enough boob. I just have a thing where it's really weird for me when I draw bewb so I rarely do. The amount on Lucy is more than I ever do. I guess I'm embarrassed...

I am quite flat-chested, compared to probably most girls my age. And I like it that way. Apparently most girls want to have big boobs but I don't whatsoever. I guess the best way for me to explain it is that it's a sign that, well, I'm growing up. But like Peter Pan, I wanna be a kid forever! I don't want to be an adult, although there's some stuff that I have to be older to do. If I could be in elementary school until I die, awesome! But no, we all have to face puberty. I am dreading the day when I'll be too big for literally anything from the girl's section. I tend to cover up my chest so that people don't see that I am growing! (But I have been getting the skinny waist, or hour-glass shape, which I am actually fine with, for some reason. But no boobs. That's just crossing the line.) You probably now mistake me for a cuckoo bird. Well, you are wrong! Cuckoo birds are indigenous to my area. (...Oh dear, that's a reference to Ninjago...)

 Back to my sort of cosplay, she told me she wants me to dress up like that again next time we have a class together, and she'll dress like Erza and it'll be a Fairy Tail party all up in here! I'm just kinda wondering what she'll wear that won't seem weird for school...

On Wednesday, I finished all 48 episodes available on Netflix, and it ended on an episode where it realistically could've just ended. But from the pictures I saw on Google, there is deeeeeeefinetely more. On the very last one, I got a quote too great that I just wanted to save it.

This is held over your head and done with your right hand. However, when I did it with my right the camera flipped it and I couldn't stand it so I changed to my left hand. Most of the time I see myself in the MIRROR, so I had to change it so it looked right to me, like I was looking at a mirror. I also had technical difficulties drawing myself with Lucy, because I usually draw myself how I look in the mirror, but then if I did that then I would've had to flip Lucy instead to match how I look but then she wouldn't look right anymore so I had to force myself to draw myself reverse to how I usually draw myself and it pained me so. The biggest thing is that my hair part is always on the left, so I usually draw it how it looks in the mirror, which would change it so to others it looks like I have a right part so for that drawing I had to make it look like a left part like it looks to other people, but that's not how I see myself so it was harder to do. Am I confusing you?

I don't know, that quote just seems so cute, especially since it was from relative to relative. But it probably will just sound weird if I tried to explain it to someone. I started thinking that I would use it with my kids, like if they got lost in a store, I would tell them to go to higher ground and hold their hand up like that, and I'll also be holding up the sign while searching so it would be faster to find each other. I don't know, that could possibly work. But it just doesn't have as deep a meaning unless I did it with someone who also knew the show and this quote and what it meant. Sigh...

Also, on Tuesday and Wednesday I watched a lot of anime, and at one point I got so surprised that in my head I said "HOLY FREEZNUT" or something like that. I just kept repeating that and being like "why the heck am I saying holy freeznut or freeznit or whatever it's not even a word" but I just kept saying that at the intense surprising moments or similar so I guess it's my new swear word.

World: I grant unto you the new term "holy freeznut." Definition: just a word you say when something so awesome happens in your anime you can barely think correctly for a moment. ONLY used when watching anime. Alternate spelling and pronunciation is "holy freeznit."

OOH one for thing for today. Last Thursday I was put in a fanfic! The wonderful author TheGoldenApple10 on FanFiction wrote a story that's still going and I just love it. I asked if maybe I could be in it for a part, because he (I just assume this author is a he, for some reason) used a reviewer's name in one part, but I preferred more like me, myself, and I. I told that to him, and then through PM I gave him some ideas of how to include my name and explained what I'm like and stuff. About a week later I'm already in! https://www.fanfiction.net/s/9786779/29/Chris-the-Human Look for "Lily," because that's what he's using. (Of course, the whole thing makes much more sense if you start reading from Chapter 1.) The author just used a small piece of information where I said some phrases I use. I don't even know how to describe how happy I was finding myself there. The best part is that at the end, he tells me that my OC will pop up more in the future! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!! My heart started freaking out ♥♥♥♥♥ and I could barely think straight for a while! The only thing is that it's not an OC, this person he's putting there is ME. There is a difference between someone you make up and someone who already exists, right? Whatever. I still fangirl all over the place whenever I think about the fact that I'm in such a great thing on the internet.

Peace out yo! Hopefully I'll get the next post done sooner. I'll have some interesting topics for you all...