So I have, once again, been really bad about this. I think I'll be better once my church ward changes to an earlier time.
Until then, though, I think this is worth posting by itself.
I, uh... had my first kiss today? And officially started dating a guy? I'm now a girlfriend?!
This still feels pretty surreal to me. You know me. I was always scared of getting even close to something like this, feeling romantic emotions and all that junk. So... yeah, I'm still wigged out by all this.
The only person I've told this far is my sister (kinda glad I didn't have to say it to her face since we kinda don't live together anymore, I don't know what I would've looked like), since everyone else is pretty dang gossipy and much more interested than I am. I wanna see how long it'll take for the news to spread across the neighborhood... ugh, no one's gonna leave me alone.
So... I do like him, but I'm so not used to this (how many people say that at 19?) and I think I am just naturally not as feelsy in the relationship sense than most people even with the inexperience taken out, so I don't know where it'll go. Hopefully, it'll all be good.
I kinda wanted something to happen before it reached this point so it stopped there just because I was scared... but I know I'm not gonna grow as a person and, well, never get to know what it's like until I just let it happen.
So here I am. Now a girlfriend. It's weird.
(His name is Finn the Human, by the way. It's not my best code-name ever, but I think it'll do.)
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