I'd kept missing Sundays because we kept going over to Lala/Elenita/Lia's house in the afternoons/evenings right when I would be planning to write here. As you'll see, I was rather busy throughout these past weeks, which makes this even more frustrating. Honestly, though, I ended up feeling too lazy during that days that I did have time and would end up just reading or something instead. Ugh.
But I'm finally sitting down to write! And man, has a lot happened lately.
Week 1:
On Tuesday, I went to that thing where I was supposed to go talk to a counselor and start getting registered for classes. I did so, but... there, we were told something about my scholarship. It wouldn't work anymore if I went to this specific campus. I- I can't even. We asked someone, what, 2 or 3 times if I could use it in this campus, and we were told YES! And suddenly it turns out they were all wrong?! And they tell me now?!
Over the next couple days, the guy who told us this said he was going to try to get an exception for me, because it wasn't my fault that up till now we believed the plan was okay, but his superiors said no. If I was going to the same campus as my sis, I'd have to accept the highest scholarship they offer there, which is not even half of what I was originally offered. So, we had to rush to see if I could still go to the main campus after all. Lia was fortunate enough that she found an open apartment room super close to the campus (and to her room, too!) super fast, and we were so, so relieved to see that there were more classes with space still than we expected, because classes can fill up fast. My dad and I actually went to the main campus in person the Tuesday after to get this fixed and talk to a counselor and see the apartment. It all seemed like it'd work, so we made it official. (We also got a bit of Aggie ice cream, because duh.) It was hard to say goodbye to the previous plan, but it's a lot of scholarship money I'd be throwing away.
Something good happened on the same day, though- I had the inspiration to draw some more WFAM characters! Check 'em out~
Something interesting about drawing characters is that they sometimes end up nothing like what you originally expected... but you love it. Boom here was originally gonna have straight, wild hair, but something told me I should make him more different from the original inspiration (author's character) and the expectation. This feels like it fits better. His eyebrows were not being kind, because I was trying to make them sparse but then his whole forehead area smudged up too much. I think his hairline's a bit off too? But I'm less worried about this pic being perfect, so I don't mind too much.
I think I mentioned somewhat his personality a loooooong time ago, but I'll talk about it again. Basically, he's a talking beastie who loves explosives and bugs. They might sound a little random at first, but if you remember that it'd be extremely handy to shift into a cockroach because those things can survive a lot... yeah, that's where the idea came from. I mean, he wouldn't be close to an explosion if possible, but he'd certainly have a better shot at surviving as a roach or beetle or whatever other armored insects and animals he likes. I wouldn't call him comic relief (why do they always like making the black guy the comic relief?), but he is a little weird yet extremely likable.
Saj has also changed from the original description, but I think it's for the better. She passed on her original hairstyle to Boom and instead likes to have her long, straight hair be styled into waves or curls and wear makeup. I don't know how I didn't think of it before- if she's the girl who loves making costumes and disguises, why couldn't she also be a fashionista? I tried my best to depict some recent trends, but the part of her outfit that's supposed to be her shirt tucked into the front didn't work out so well. That, and her eyebrows are a little too high up and intense. I think, otherwise, it worked out pretty well.
Rius is the one in this small collection of doodles that I think is the most successful. The face looks really good, the body and clothes aren't that bad, and his hands actually look right! They look like hands!!! And the finger-gun looks like a finger-gun!!! It's typically really hard to draw stuff directed at the viewer, so that makes me so happy. I think it shows really well his personality, too.
Lastly, I got Quark down, who also changed from the original appearance I had imagined, but not very much. She was always going to have short hair, but I'd thought maybe side-swept first. As I got her face down, I decided that I had quite too many characters with side-swept hair, plus it wouldn't fit as well for her, so I switched it to this instead. Not too sure about the little piece in front of her ear, (especially because it now makes it look like a toned-down version of Key's hair,) but otherwise I like it.
When I was telling Carter about these characters, we ended up coming up with Glorious Nerds as their nickname. I guess that's what I'll call Cami's TAC friends from now on. *smirk*
I also worked quite a bit on QQ this week (mostly writing new chapters) and the week after (mostly beta-ing past chapters). We actually ended up getting a new beta on-board last week who also joined the Hangout group Liz and I are on with Scaehime. I feel like she has a lot less to say than my other friends who acted as betas, which makes me wonder if she really thinks my writing is that flawless or is more forgiving or what... but she has some really great memes, which make up for that a bit. (Hehe.)
I ended up helping Lala a bit with her homework a few more times, though there were a few questions that were more like geometry I wasn't very sure about. (I had geometry in 10th grade! Give me a break!) Doesn't help that I'm pretty sure a couple questions weren't written correctly...
Friday was my first time working... pretty much ever. And the shift started at 6:30 AM. Flower's mom and dad had brought me and Lia with them to their catering job because they had a lot of business that day. Preparing everything and then putting everything back into the trucks after wasn't very fun, but actually serving the food and washing up dishes wasn't all that bad. I actually kinda liked serving, because people were nice and would sometimes crack a joke. I also ended up befriending one of the girls working there who was a high school senior, too. (Oh, and eating some of the leftover food for lunch was mmmmm!!!) Of course, it was still tough that the shift ended up being so long- we clocked out at 5:30 PM that day- and I got distracted during the last few hours with the whole scholarship problem, since that was when I got the call that there would be no exception... But I'm still hoping they'll call me back to do some more shifts over the summer. Apparently, that is very likely. (Also, I finally got my food handler's permit on Monday, so I can do this job for reals. I was told I would probably only wash dishes, so I didn't bother with getting the permit before... and, well, turns out I ended up touching the food. Please don't tell them that.)
While I was with the catering company, my mom and dad were helping CapSis move to their new apartment. They seem to like living there quite a bit, but they were having a lot of trouble finding decent jobs in the area; luckily, Sis was called to get an interview for a customer service job yesterday! They've also told us a bit about how dumb and weird Princess Peanut Butter Cup can be, like trying to eat tissue paper and begging to drink water out of the sink every morning and evening.
We also found out that day that, due to one of his coworker's illegal idiocies, my dad's team got fired (though Dad was told they were trying to find a new project for him since he was cool enough to find out about and warn his bosses about the coworker's actions the day before everything blew up). Super excitement time, though: he got offered a new job two days ago! He starts in about two weeks, I think.
Last two things for this week (man, and we have so much to go, UGH): my parents and I watched Beauty and the Beast (the new live-action) on Saturday, and a girl I knew a long time ago visited our church on Sunday. She used to take dance classes with me and Beka back when I was in 6th grade! She's now 15, and a whole lot taller (she looks like everything- her face, body, and even hair- got stretched upwards!), but she's still pretty shy. I was happy to chat with her a bit at church, plus see her at the church activity the next Friday (which I'll mention in a bit).
Week 2:
Tuesday was Senior Dinner! It wasn't... really what I expected. But the food was really good and I got to talk with... Geez, I don't think I ever gave her a nickname. Uh... since she likes having people call her that, let's go with Crazy Insane Person. But yeah, we sat at the same table as Crazy Insane Person and her mom and sis. The mentors made little "awards" for each senior that was based on a candy; CIP got the gummy worms because, though she's very sweet and kind, she's also always got the wiggles and can't sit still, and I got peanut M&M's because my mentor thinks I'm... fun and nutty?
My dad took me to watch the Power Rangers movie on Thursday. I liked most of it, but was kinda weirded out by the villain and final battle in the Zords? Though the very last move is pretty dang awesome.
A couple different things happened the day after. There was the church activity where we were performing the different dances. Apparently, ours went pretty well, while... in general, the other acts were a little terrible, and the DJ was a butthole. After all the acts, though, a dance party started as people started to put stuff away. It was actually really fun, and tons of people were participating, unlike lots of other ward activities. It was during the dance party that I also ended up meeting a kid named Brandon.
He's 19, works, and not very practiced in the art of dancing. The funny part is that his mom- my Sunday School teacher- was the one pushing him to talk to me and ask me out! I think seeing that his mom liked me and thought high enough of her son to encourage him to date was part of why I thought there wasn't any harm in going (you know, besides that he was nice and pretty easy to talk to). I... I dunno, I think, considering I literally only had a week left of school and was only doing seminary anyways and already did an early graduation were good enough reasons to say I didn't really break the "no dating until high school's over" rule I enforced on myself. And yeah, he seemed like a good guy.
Once I was home, though, I also started to feel a little more apprehensive, cuz it's not like I'm all that romantically-inclined... I still think kissing's gross and such after all these years, and... I know it takes me a really long time to say if maybe, maybe, I have even a little crush.
The sentiment ended up still reigning pretty dang supreme on the date. It was really fun to run around Classic Fun Center's bouncy houses, and so was when we'd just sit and talk about whatever. It turned out there were some things that we both liked, like some animes and Julian Smith videos. He also showed off his skating skillz, and even participated in a race, while I was cheering him on in the sidelines with ice cream in my hand.
I found fast that there was something I just couldn't get past about him. He was a lot more... touchy? Like, he was almost to "handsy", which unsettled me, especially because I'd literally only met him the night previous. I've never really cared about getting some sort of contact on my arms, or sitting close enough to be touching my leg (besides Ivan), or hugging if there's consent. But then he was just poking me in the stomach, and randomly hugging me without asking, and holding me by the waist (which I'm only used to when dancing)... *whispers* and I'm pretty sure he almost touched mah butt. Please don't.
I tried to brush it off, but I couldn't help but flinch a little and go stiff from just being so uncomfortable with this. I'm surprised he didn't ever stop with it until we stopped to eat at Arby's a long while later, because I can't imagine I was acting very well. I didn't ever return the hugs or anything. I mean, he wasn't creepy like Ivan, but... I didn't like it at all. And with him being like that, I got a little more scared that he'd want to kiss me or something, and I'm pretty dang sure dates aren't supposed to be like that. I was nervous enough that I admitted that it was my first official date and I was still at the "ewww" level of maturity with this sort of thing, and at least he didn't pressure me into another date, because he had to agree I should probably wait to date till my sentiment's otherwise.
So... I haven't talked to him again. And I just wanna say to any guys that are reading this... please, please don't be overly affectionate. It's so incredibly uncomfortable to a girl, much like complimenting her often enough that it feels like it doesn't mean anything anymore. I mean, I don't know if there's any girls out there who do like this sort of treatment from the start, but I certainly don't. I don't think I'll ever manage to get anywhere with a guy unless he won't do that to me.
As you probably saw in the previous paragraphs, that sort of behavior doesn't just invade my personal space, my bubble that holds up for a really long time even for friends, but reminds me of the guy who made 10th grade l pretty hard for me, because I would never be alone at school if he could help it. Ever. And he'd sit too close to me, and make my skin crawl when he hugged me, and he's literally the biggest reason why I'm glad I don't live in that part of the country anymore. I don't want to associate you with Ivan, whether you're being nice and innocent or not. I don't want to react to you the same way as I would with him.
So please be a little more respectful of girls, and be very wary of how she's reacting to contact, so she can relax around you whether it's with lots of contact or none at all.
Okay, so I pretty much got through the first two weeks... I'll come back later to do the second half. (And why I can't right now is a story to leave for then.) Bye!
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