I... did a lot of derping around, looking through some past writings and blog posts, before I finally opened up this new post. Silly Lily, that's for Even Older Me to do!
I forgot to mention last week that 1. Captain came to Brorange's house, too. That was the first time he met the Broranges family, and vice-versa. I heard that, while I was gaming with Broranges in his room, they chatted with Captain quite a bit, and he took a nap on their couch at some point... 2. I binged Ninjago quite a bit on... Thursday, I believe. I made it into the next season (Season 5), and I'm loving it, too! No wonder my cousins said it was their favorite season! I haven't finished it, yet, but I'm really excited to see how it ends.
This week, being "Spring Break" (in quotations because I still spent some time on school stuff), I honestly wasn't very busy. We did a couple trips to the storage unit, I went to school on Tuesday and Thursday (since I had seminary on those days), and I did much more lazing around, Facebooking, and going to bed way too late than I hoped for. (I never live up to my own expectations during breaks.)
Something fun that happened on my first school day was that, since it was Pi Day, the teachers brought pie. A lot of pie. Enough for most of the students to get a slice! And, since they started setting up right outside the room I was working in, I got to be first in line! I gots peach. Yum~ (It was also Finn the Human's birthday. In commemoration, I wore a lot of blue, black shoes with white socks, and my cat-eared hat. Oh, and my BMO headphones, of course. I'd made the unfortunate mistake of wearing my only Adventure Time shirt when we went to Brorange's house, so it was in the dirty clothes hamper! I made do with other items, but it was definitely not easy to tell what I was aiming for.)
I didn't really do much on my solo projects, but there was a pretty decent amount of QQ done. This was just about our longest streak. Saturday, Monday, and Wednesday? It's unprecedented!
One of the things that we did to work on QQ was use a character creator for a character that would soon appear in the story. Since my partner-in-crime plays a lot of RPGs, she was using the character creators for her games. One of them was actually really cool, because it had a level of detail that I haven't seen anywhere else! I kinda wish I could use just the creator, as if it was a Rinmaru game. Pretty sure that's not how it works, though.
Remember how, about halfway through last year, I'd come up with Sylvie, an OC for QQ? She decided to try to make Sylvie in the creator. Though I'm guessing I might've done a few small differences in her appearance if I'd use the creator myself, I think she did a really good job! (Hope it's okay that I post what was technically her work... But it's my character, so I guess it's not a big deal.)
The real Sylvie dresses very casually, but that's not a choice in the creator. I think the clothes she put instead were a really good choice, since they are subtler than I'm sure a lot of the other choices are, and they compliment her hair and eyes very well.
We went out to eat at a Vietnamese restaurant for lunch on Friday, and... I hardly accomplished anything useful. A really great thing happened, though!
I don't know if I mentioned this. author's been my friend basically since I began doing stuff on FFN, right? Sure, we sometimes took a while to reply to each other (I was a lot more guilty of doing this, honestly), but we usually had pretty frequent and regular communications going on. Around the end of last October, though, she suddenly didn't reply. A few months later, I sent another PM, to see if maybe she'd just forgotten, but still no response. I got rather worried about her, because this had never happened before, and I didn't know what to make of her long-term disappearance. I didn't know if it was just because she was always too busy, or stopped using FFN, or (like a couple of my other online friends) got in trouble with her parents and wasn't allowed to be on FFN anymore, or some other reason that was not as innocent. That last possibility scared me a bit, even though I knew it was the least likely.
My fears could finally find relief, as she finally sent a PM back on Friday! It turned out it was indeed a mix of being too busy and dealing with her anxiety. I mean, that's not good, but sooo much better than some of the other things I was imagining. I sent her a giant virtual glomp, happy and relieved to know that she was okay.
Saturday had a trip to a tiny campus that my sis had considered attending, but I kept being Grumpy Cat about going there myself. I know I was (and, admittedly, still kinda am) not being very open-minded about attending anywhere besides the U. My mom's been telling me, though, that she thinks it'd be really hard on her and my dad if I went there; with all the moving and job-switching and the wedding, it was just going to be too much money. This tiny campus has the cheapest tuition in the state, and I knew I'd regardless not be able to spend all 4 years there because they didn't offer a bachelor's in biology. (It's one of the campuses that's part of the state university; I'd have to switch to the main campus to finish my degree.) Considering all the hype I went through for the U, and all the plans we were concocting, and the science programs I wanted to be a part of... I'm still struggling with not being disappointed by the fact that I'm now being told I can't do any of that anymore, and would probably have to instead go somewhere that I'm not as enthusiastic about. It feels like I'm missing out on opportunities that I should be taking.
Captain drove me and my sis down to the school. The trip itself was pretty fun, since we passed through roads walled by mountains and red-rock, and played a lot of Latino party tunes in the car. (I just kinda wanna send a shout-out to both of them for not making me feel uncomfortable or excluded. It was more like... a true trio. Three Musketeers. Powerpuff Girls. Not the couple and their third wheel, or the sisters and the driver, or anything weird like that. I'm starting to think I might be feeling even more at peace with the idea of my sister being with this guy than I had once been of her being with Niisan. He treats her very well, and treats me well too. I appreciate that more than I think I can properly express.)
I had hoped seeing the campus for myself would help me feel better about the change (or decide that I hated it and stick to the U, regardless of how tough it'd be on my parents), but... it felt like it didn't really sway me one way or the other. I didn't hate it, nor absolutely love it (like my sis did). I still felt... stuck. I managed to hide this from the other people present, but I was not having a good time warring with myself.
After the tour (which took a lot less time than the one my dad and I took at the U, that's for sure) and lunch break, they drove me to the nearest station to take the train home. I felt rather pathetic for feeling a little scared about riding the train by myself, but... well, I was. I knew it's something I'd have to start getting used to the idea to, regardless of which school I went to, so I agreed to it, but that didn't stop me from feeling kinda anxious about it. I think it was for the better, in that case, that my mom had suggested doing a bit of the seminary make-up work during the ride. It meant I had to do a prayer to start, and I could ask to be calm and safe while riding, which actually happened. I continued to be calm and safe once I got off, which was good, since it turned out the GPS was being rude to my mom, and she didn't make it to the station till 20 minutes later. I'd spent that time sitting on a bench singing to myself.
But, well, my calm, content attitude kinda fell apart when my mom asked me in the car how I was feeling about going to that college instead. I don't think my mom quite understands how I feel about all of this (and I don't think I do, either), despite trying to explain it for a while.
Part because I kinda wanted to distract myself from the stuff we were talking about, part because I was hungry and wasn't really in the mood for anything we had in the house, and part because I wanted to let my mom indulge in her cravings just like she sometimes does for us, I agreed to going our for burgers. We ended up going to Carl's Jr. (Man, I keep forgetting that I typically can't handle all the food within a single combo when it's not all items from the dollar menu. I played drums for a while- I've played on Tuesday and Saturday for the past few weeks, so I guess that'll be my schedule for the rest of our stay here- just to see if I could get the food in my stomach to settle a bit and give me room for the rest of my meal. I just got in my last bite of burger and the rest of my shake. I didn't eat most of my fries. Maybe I'll eat the rest of those once I finish this post...)
I think the last thing to mention is that I made a donation to a charity thing online for the first time. It's the first thing I've used my debit card for. I did so because Carter told me a few days ago that his dad offered to pay for his plane tickets here (and I also told him of some potential restaurants we could eat prom dinner at), which means I won't be helping to pay anymore. I also saw something shared on FB where a group of celebrities (I only recognize one of them, honestly) started a project where they'd send cargo planes full of tons (and I literally mean tons- I think they said 60 tons) of food to Somalia, since they are going through such a horrifyingly deadly drought and food shortage. I'd only seen news about this a day or two earlier, but- like a lot of stuff- I'd thought that there probably wasn't really anything I could do. Seeing this food project for Somalia, though, plus knowing that I could use a bit of money for things like this instead of the plane tickets... it felt right to help. After a lot of internal deliberation, I ended up sending $30. It feels like a lot and very little at the same time, but I contributed.
After telling Carter about this, though, he mentioned also that he'd like to donate to help Syria, where so many people are without food and dying/getting seriously injured in the warzone. I wish I'd thought to save some of the money I donated for Syria instead, though I'm not quite sure what to do for them... Maybe I'll come across another opportunity, and use money from my savings account instead for that? I don't know.
Well, I'm back to the normal school schedule tomorrow. Boooooo. See you later, Terminators.
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