Hello and Happy New Year, world!
Yeah, I didn't write this Sunday, even though there's still some stuff from weeks ago I need to cover! And this whole thing is kinda written in different chunks and then rearranged, so it might not transition that well between paragraphs...
So guess who arrived at my house for Christmas?! *excited*
My sister! (Yeah, sorry, not Santa Claus.)
She'd supposedly not been able to come for Winter Break, but at the last minute her boss- yes, her freaking boss- bought her a plane ticket to come spend the rest of the holidays with us. Isn't that crazy?!
I don't think it's recorded in this blog, but when we came back from Mexico, we actually hadn't told anyone, so my sister actually went to visit her friends at their houses and surprise them. She said her friends had the funniest reactions to her popping up out of nowhere when they thought she was in another country. One friend even cried (though she cries often) and tried to be mad at her but was also too happy to do so properly.
Yeah, she decided to pull something like that again, but with us, her family.
Since it's only been a few months since I last saw her, I wasn't bawling, but I was still slack-jawed and so happy to see her.
I don't think I'll ever get over how it feels to hug her after we've been apart for a while. The feeling of having realized one had been without the familiar touch of someone they care about but they're now here is so great. Even when we're adults and have our own houses and families, I bet I'll still relish hugging her when I have the chance to.
So on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day, we spent time watching Christmas movies along with all the normal TV shows we usually watch, especially when my sister's around. And yes, Die Hard counts as a Christmas movie. Everyone had gifts for each other, except me... I was hoping maybe I could tell them how much I love them, but didn't really know when to do that... and they know already...
My sister and I got a lot of leggings/tights along with chocolate from my mom, and my sister gave me and my mom a collection of Roald Dahl books. My grandma had also sent me a really cute and warm onesie, and we all assume a similar one was sent to my sister, but she'll have to wait till she goes back to her place to find out.
There was also a Skype call from Niisan! For some weird reason Skype wasn't working for my sister, so at the last minute I tried with my own account on my phone, and... Well, my sis and Niisan were using my phone for the call for, like, 2 hours. I managed to keep myself busy without my phone, but I felt bad because at that moment some of my online friends had been working on something and I just kinda randomly disappeared with no warning. They hadn't done much after I disappeared, though, so not too much guilt.
Now I'm gonna skip ahead to this week, since most of the time has been spent lazing around... Now to Monday!
Coatrack texted me in the morning, asking me if I wanted to hang out with him and his dad. It sounded a bit odd, and I felt like I might miss a day of bonding with my sister, but I said sure. (Turns out she didn't do much I would've been excited about anyway. And bonding with friends is important too, right?)
I spent basically the whole day with Coatrack and his dad. I ate lunch, dinner, and fro-yo with them, plus went to visit his mom at her store, went to the arcade, and I actually stuck around for his guitar lessons. Even though I don't play guitar, I feel like I actually learned something... that I'll never actually apply in real life, but it's still something. *shrug* I just felt sad because I can't play drums... When the day comes that I can play them again, it'll be quite great. And I'm gonna have to build up my speed again! Dang it!
Last thing we did was just hang out in his room, watching a bit of Netflix or Youtube, or just talking, or at one point actually singing and dancing a little. And it was at that point that I'd remembered the little song I'd come up with about him... And I managed to get myself to actually sing it to him. The moment I actually sung it it sounded like a really bad, stupid song to me, but hopefully he could get what I was trying to tell him with it. I mean, even if parts of it didn't make sense to him, I SANG to him! That is a show of true care, coming from me. I don't know if Darkrai remembers when I did that for him... That time it'd been "Glorious", not a song I wrote myself, but I was trying to tell him something with it then, too.
So, that's now done, but I still have something I wanna do for him... I've really wanted to give him a Book of Mormon. I've been hearing a lot of stuff about doing missionary work, which I feel would be really difficult in my case since I don't really know many people, and most of those people don't seem like they'd be willing to listen to religious topics... But I've kept thinking about Coatrack.
I said earlier that, more than anything, I hope he will at least understand what we do more and respect us a little more, but I don't want to do just that. I'm thinking that I should do this. Give him the BoM. Explain really well exactly what it is so he doesn't just tuck it away out of sight and pretend it never happened. (I doubt he'd throw it away... But he'd still not be very happy about having it.) Tell him how much it means to me and how much this gesture I'm doing means to me.
I honestly was having a hard time convincing myself this was best. But then I read I Am the Messenger by Markus Zusak. There's some things in the book I'd rather there wasn't, but in general it is actually a really good book, and it's one that boosts my own confidence in this and future endeavors.
It inspired me even more beyond just giving a BoM... because it empowered me to think that everyone needs a miracle, a person sent to do a kind act for them, no matter what that could possibly be... and that person could just possibly be me.
And so, when I feel the time is right, I'm gonna give Coatrack a Book of Mormon. Not just that, but my tiny one that I owned for who knows how long. I never really looked in it much, but it has my name on it and it's always been there... And I always felt like I should have it around, just in case. Now I'm thinking it was always around just for this. He works in mysterious ways, and I'm hoping this is one of them, because it feels right, no matter how I feel will be the reaction. I just don't care that I think Coatrack will react badly- the world can be surprising, and maybe he actually won't, if I explain enough. At the right time with the right words, I hope I can accomplish what I've wanted to do for so long... especially for a friend I really do care about, even though I haven't actually known him for very long.
I found the book, so I'm gonna pray for the best opportunity to give it and really hope I don't mess this up.
We went for dim sum this morning and my sis and I are going to a youth dance tonight, so I'm wondering if that'll actually be fun. Hopefully yes.
OH I can't believe I forgot to mention! Thanks to the help of another author, I managed to finish that chapter of Visiting Homeland I'd been stuck on forever! So once I figure out what I want for the next, I'll be that much closer to finishing the story! I don't know how long it'll take this time, but I'm hoping I'll have it completed by the time it's exactly a year since I posted the first chapter. That would be a nice ending.
Ugh, geez, so there's still the spiritual post I have to do, but I really don't think I can do that right now. I better do it soon!
I guess I'm gonna put up the song I sang to Coatrack now, along with a picture that's kinda an inside joke with us. Coatrack the Corgi. *slowly puts on sunglasses* *YEAH!*
Again, Happy New Year! I think some big stuff will happen next year, but hopefully it's all for the better, and I hope you guys have a great 2016 too. K bai!
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