Today, I turn 16+1/12! ...Because it's exactly a month after my b-day.
Also today, there were 6 missionaries over for dinner, plus an elderly sister. 10 people in total. There wasn't enough seats, since we only have 4 chairs and 4 recliners. Our poor apartment has never been this crowded.
My sis went back to Utah again, but only for a few weeks to visit friends. Her future is very unsure, just like the rest of ours... But decisions have to be made NOW, in her case. I'm hoping she'll have chosen where/when she goes to college and stuff when she comes back. There's also the chance she's gonna have a new boyfriend... which seems a bit cruel considering my bro is coming back form his mission in just a few months. I'd been really hoping they'd work it out, cuz I could easily imagine him as my brother-in-law. Guess that's not happening. *tear*
I'd decided I'll watch Enchanted and Tangled while she's gone, because it'd be hard to convince her to watch them with me outside of my birthday, especially cuz it turns out neither of them are on Netflix... I'll have to try on Hulu. I kept forgetting to last week, though, so I'm really hoping I manage to get myself to do it tomorrow or maybe the day after.
In a few days school starts! I was actually a bit excited about it a few weeks ago, but now that it's almost time I'm just plain nervous. Didn't help that a few days ago, when my mom and I went to double-check we had everything ready paperwork-wise, the counselor wasn't the friendliest. *sweatdrop* The setup of the school is also kinda weird. I'm gonna end up doing a lot of running around between classes. *aw, man!*
My backpack is cute. It's actually from Tommy Hilfiger, but we got it at Ross for a much more decent price. I had really wanted to put pins and keychains on it, but I got really nervous about them falling off or being stolen... I ended up putting two pins (hopefully ones that cannot be stolen easily) and my rabbit's foot keychain I got in 4th grade. I dunno why, but I've always like my rabbit's foot. I think, when I got it, I didn't realize it was actually real for a while. By the point I figured it out, I liked it too much to be discouraged and grossed out by its realness. I haven't used the keychain in a long time, though, and I decided to put it on my new backpack. Some extra luck wouldn't hurt, right?
I had also put my old chibi Al keychain on (and found a keyring to use instead of the broken clasp thing!), but I was super nervous about that since it cost way too much and is the only FMA merch I have besides my books. I eventually found the solution, though. There's a zipper in the back of the main pocket, and I attached the keychain there instead. I'm still carrying Al around with me, and no one would know he's there unless I purposefully opened up my bag to show his location, which I probably won't do for anyone (unless they seem like a trustworthy friend and FMA fan).
I learned that Scaehime stills plays Wii games often, which sort of inspired/encouraged me to play my own Wii games again. I hadn't played some of these games in soooooo long!
I started with Disney Universe, since I'd had it for months and still not actually played it. *sweatdrop* It wasn't that bad, but I think it'd be funner to play with someone. It's meant to be a game played by a group, so...
I then played Wii Sports Resort and some DJ Hero. *record scratching* I love that game so much- both the first and second version.
My last playing of the Wii last week was with Michael Jackson: The Experience, and I actually played with my mom! She wants me to start doing exercise again, especially since I won't have PE anymore (I AM FREEEEE!~), and knows I really don't like exercise machines, but don't mind as much dance (as long as I don't end up pushing myself too hard). I hope we end up playing together a lot more often, because I love this game and my mom wants to exercise and learn MJ moves! It'd be a way for us to spend more time together, too. Maybe I can get her to try games on Wii Sports too... *light scheming*
Yesterday, me and my parents down downtown again. I like downtown here. You're more likely to see food trucks, street performers, art, and all that other stuff that Keeps Portland Strange. *rimshot*
We found some food trucks that were interesting. One had pure dumplings, but different flavors that had nothing to do with each other, yet were all really good. The only prob, Bob, is that it'd take a LOT of dumplings to get full. So, that was just part of our lunch.
There was also a- wait for it- Transylvanian food truck. I know! WHAT?!
It was actually really good. I'd like to try more stuff from their menu sometime.
After lunch, we headed toward the mall. My mom had us stop at Sephora, and there found some colorful eyeliners that actually looked kinda cool (for eyeliners... *psh*). She tried one on herself, then (to by begrudgement- I know that's not a word, but deal with it!) put some on me.
Have I mentioned I don't like makeup?
I just feel... like I don't like what I look like with makeup. I am perfectly fine with my face the way it is without anything on it. At all. That's why my mom and sister can only manage to get makeup on me for performances, costumes, and maaaaybe a special occasion.
I think it's a little unfair that they're always ragging on me for not wearing any makeup. Even my dad complains. In fact, he might be the one that complains the most. And the way he does it just sounds rude to me. You do realize you're talking to your daughter, right?!
And it's not just what I look like with makeup on, it's also such a pain to put on and take off, especially take off.
I also sort of worry that, if I did eventually start wearing makeup, I'd forget I have it on and start rubbing my eye or something and mess it up and get makeup on my hands and ugh. One of the things I don't like about makeup- I don't have the freedom of touching my own face as I please! I don't even want to think of what'll happen if I end up crying someday for whatever reason.
My mom was really considering buying the blue eyeliner for me, but I managed to convince her no, because she wanted to get me to put it on myself! OFTEN! I'm sorry, Mom, but am I really gonna do that of my own free will unless it was part of a Halloween costume? No, I'm not. I don't want makeup. I rarely use the two lipsticks I already have, even less that perfume I was given when I was little.
(No, wait- I think I realized what my true problem is. I feel like I don't even look like me anymore with makeup on. I look like I'm trying to be someone else, and I'm not trying to be someone else. I want to be me, Lily, lilaclily00. Even the tiniest amount makes me feel like I'm masking my real face, even though makeup is supposed to "enhance your natural beauty" or something. I don't like feeling like that. That's the deepest reason for my dislike of makeup and things related to it.)
*deep sigh* I feel like my family tries to pressure me into doing stuff I sincerely don't want to do, and it tends to be difficult to explain why I don't want to do that. I really love my family, but I don't really say much about my mom's, my dad's, or my sister's decisions, so why are they so bugged by mine? It's not a horrible thing to not want to dye my hair or wear freaking eyeliner and lipgloss, so what is the big deal?!
Rant's over. And so is this post. Bai.
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